1. The End Begins Why did you leave me? Why did you leave me? Now they are free And they are coming after me Why did you leave me? Why did you leave me? Now they are free And they are coming after me (Why?) Why did you leave me? (Why?) Why did you leave me? (Why?) Now they are free (Why?) And they are coming after me They're coming They're coming They're coming They're coming Oh God, fuck 2. Cold (Go a-way) They come for me Discomforting They make it feel like I'm a step away (Go a-way) From doing it I'm thru with it I'm tainted with suffering can't get thru it (Go a-way) They come for me Discomforting They make it feel like I'm a step away (Go a-way) From doing it I'm thru with it I'm tainted with suffering can't get thru it Set the bait and I'm waiting In a state of concentrating I'm gonna knock this mothafucka down Down, down-down-down And there's a catch with this waiting Alone my thoughts are overtaking Do I got the strength to take this fucker down? Deep in me Is something Talking shit Pushing me Cold Cold-inside, lying deep The father of hate The endless nightmare I can never escape The broken in flames They call out my name They dance in my dreams While I scream out in pain I'm on my way This is the day This is the time to break it down Get out my way Nothing can stay This is the time to break it down Alone I wait with the craving I watch my step, I'm calculating On how I'm taking this motherfucker down Down, down-down-down I don't know what I am thinking Sometimes I feel like I am sinking Into the ground I'll call my grave Cold-inside, lying deep The father of hate The endless nightmare I can never escape I'm on my way This is the day This is the time to break it down Get out my way Nothing can stay This is the time to break it down Break it down Deep in me Is something Talking shit Pushing me I'm on my way This is the day This is the time to break it down Get out my way Nothing can stay This is the time to break it down I'm on my way This is the day This is the time to break it down Get out my way Nothing can stay This is the time to break it down (Go a-way) They come for me Discomforting They make it feel like I'm a step away (Go a-way) From doing it I'm thru with it I'm tainted with suffering can't get thru it (Go a-way) They come for me Discomforting They make it feel like I'm a step away (Go a-way) From doing it I'm thru with it I'm tainted with suffering can't get thru it 3. You'll Never Find Me Life is degrading and silently making Me spun out inside my own head Spewing and craving this darkness is baiting me Down the road to my own death I can't take this I might break it Watch it all fall down So come give me The truth you hide Take the pain inside Humiliating, I fold to its craving It feeds on the doubt in my heart Sinking and fading are feelings I'm saving To fix what I tore all apart I can't take this I might break it Watch it all fall down So come give me The truth you hide Take the pain inside I'm lost You'll never find me I'm lost You'll never find me I'm lost You'll never find me I'm lost You'll never find me I'm lost You'll never find me I'm lost You'll never find me I'm lost You'll never find me I'm lost So come give me The truth you hide Take the pain inside I'm lost You'll never find me I'm lost You'll never find me I'm lost You'll never find me I'm lost Come for me I'm not doing fine... 4. The Darkness Is Revealing Here behind the curtain lies a darkness feeding Pooled inside, in hunger cries, and still it's eating Everything I had to hide is all on my sleeve In behind the curtain lies my soul, I'm bleeding And I see it Can't believe it And the sun goes down Taking my heart What is this I'm feeling? Is it a new beginning? Am I purging past regrets? Facing the hurt I'm dealing? How does one start healing? The darkness is revealing The bittersweet reality That this is the help I'm needing Why must I be bastardized? My essence flees Search my mind and all I find is banded feeling Once you pull the bandage off, you feel the sting Only way to fix it is through painful suffering And I see it Can't believe it And the sun goes down Taking my heart What is this I'm feeling? Is it a new beginning? Am I purging past regrets? Facing the hurt I'm dealing? How does one start healing? The darkness is revealing The bittersweet reality That this is the help I'm needing (Take a look around, it's the morning star coming for me) Take a look around, it's the morning star coming for me Take a look around, it's the morning star coming for me Take a look around, it's the morning star coming for me Take a look around, it's the morning star coming for me Take a look around, it's the morning star coming for me Take a look around, it's the morning star coming for me Take a look around, it's the morning star coming for me Is he friend, is he foe, is he high, is he low? Where the fuck I'm supposed to go? Where the fuck I'm supposed to go? Take a look around, another morning star, it's coming for me Take a look around, another morning star, it's coming for me Is he friend, is he foe, is he high, is he low? Where the fuck I'm supposed to go? Where the fuck I'm supposed to go? Feel me, heal me All that's in me Give it all back I can't have this Feeling, failing All that's creating Fuck out Get the fuck out Get the fuck out Get the fuck out Get the fuck out Get the fuck out 5. Idiosyncrasy And the dark seems to light my way And the path is deceiving And the end is so far away It might just defeat me But I gotta take my time And I won't let it take me away And it never got the best of me Don't do it Don't give in Won't you ever get it? Won't you ever get it? You've chose to walk a thin line Replaced the hurt without healing mine You hold disgust in your heart You just fucked with me, idiosyncrasy In my heart lies a blackened rage Sometimes it overtakes me Why the fuck did I run away? My shadow is waiting But I gotta face the facts Of a twisted reality And it never got a hold of me Don't do it Don't give in Won't you ever get it? Won't you ever get it? You've chose to walk a thin line Replaced the hurt without healing mine You hold disgust in your heart You just fucked with me, idiosyncrasy You've chose to walk a thin line Replaced the hurt without healing mine You hold disgust in your heart You just fucked with me, idiosyncrasy Ah, ah Crawling down the path, I'm helpless, reaching for the light I see Every time I get too close, the light proceeds ahead of me Taking deep, I take a step; standing up, I take a breath Running towards the light, I feel the fingers wrap around my neck God is making fun of me He's laughing up there, I can see God is making fun of me He's laughing up there, I can see God is making fun of me God is making fun of me God is making fun of me He's laughing up there, I can see God is making fun of me He's laughing up there, I can see God is making fun of me He's laughing up there, I can see You've chose to walk a thin line Replaced the hurt without healing mine You hold disgust in your heart You just fucked with me, idiosyncrasy You've chose to walk a thin line Replaced the hurt without healing mine You hold disgust in your heart You just fucked with me, idiosyncrasy 6. The Seduction Of Indulgence Oh, look at me I'm taking a huge risk crossing this line Oh, look at me Determined that I'm not gonna win this time Oh, what will be I'm unprotected and painfully confined Oh, come fuck with me I think I'm ready all this time Oh, come with me They say the torture is divine Looking at me Oh, they take their time Skinning me, stabbing me Touching me, licking me Raping me, skinning me Stabbing me, touching me Licking me, raping me Skinning me, stabbing me Touching me, licking me Raping me, skinning me Stabbing me, touching me Licking me, raping me Skinning me, stabbing me Touching me, licking me Raping me, skinning me Stabbing me, touching me Licking me, raping me Skinning me, stabbing me 7. Finally Free It's hard to see what you will find When your heart dipped in agony I tried too hard, I was too kind I saw your face in everything It's coming for me It's laughing at me It's time to realize what is really going down It's staring at me It's pulling on me I can't believe it Take it down, take it down now Where are you now? I tried to get through to you, nothing is saving you How could I fail? This life betrayed you and you are finally free What you see is what you get I had no time to process it I think if I just turn around That this nightmare will come around, oh It's coming for me It's laughing at me It's time to realize what is really going down It's staring at me It's pulling on me I can't believe it Take it down, take it down now Where are you now? I tried to get through to you, nothing is saving you How could I fail? This life betrayed you and you are finally free You're crying out for me (Don't let it take you down) You're crying out for me (Don't let it take you down) It's so hard to see (Don't let it take you down) It's so hard to see It's so hard to see It's so hard to see You're crying out for me You're crying out for me Where are you now? I tried to get through to you, nothing is saving you How could I fail? This life betrayed you and you are finally free That you're finally free That you're finally free That you're finally free That you're finally free It's so hard to see It's so hard to see You're crying out for me You're crying out for me 8. Can You Hear Me It walks with me It takes its time It sinks its teeth in one at a time It loves to feed It loves my past It's always taunting but somehow out of grasp Can you hear me? 'Cause I'm lost And I may never come back again And while my heart keeps holding on I know I'll never be the same again It talks to me It holds my hand It showers me with things I can't understand It has no reason It knows no time It's constantly watching so it's not left behind Can you hear me? 'Cause I'm lost And I may never come back again And while my heart keeps holding on I know I'll never be the same again Can you hear me? 'Cause I'm lost And I may never come back again And while my heart keeps holding on I know I'll never be the same again You know I'll never be the same again You know I'll never be the same again You know I'll never be the same again You know I'll never be the same again Can you hear me? 'Cause I'm lost And I may never come back again And while my heart keeps holding on I know I'll never be the same again I know I'll never be the same again I know I'll never be the same again I know I'll never be the same again I know I'll never be the same again 9. The Ringmaster Hey, you Yes, I'm talkin' to you And what are you doing here? And why you look so sad, man? Brother, please come here Let's talk it, let it out Dear, you have nothing to fear Child, I'm the one that makes it oh so, so much better I feel your presence standing there up in my face I feel the darkness haunting me with it's embrace I want to shed this, go to a place, a different time The plot unfolds, this meaning here I'll never find Never find, never find, never find, never find Never find, never find, never find, never find Hey, man What do we have here? Boy, looking so upset You're making it quite clear That you want nothing to change 'Cause you're so willing to hurt Feel at home in the dark, boy Everything you feel, child, won't make it better I feel your presence standing there up in my face I feel the darkness haunting me with it's embrace I want to shed this, go to a place, a different time The plot unfolds, this meaning here, I'll never find You ever hear that voice in your motherfucking head? It goes Looking at you Poking at you Yelling at you Fucking with you Looking at you Poking at you Yelling at you Fucking with you Looking at you Poking at you Yelling at you Fucking with you Looking at you Poking at you Yelling at you Fucking with you It's fucking with you It's fucking with you I feel your presence standing there up in my face I feel the darkness haunting me with it's embrace I want to shed this, go to a place, a different time The plot unfolds, this meaning here, I'll never find Never find, never find, never find, never find Never find, never find, never find, never find Never find, never find, never find, never find Never find, never find, never find, never find 10. Gravity Of Discomfort I've walked this world alone in prison by design This broken bearer of shame is right here by my side Higher than the highest goes Darker than the blackest hole Feel myself release my soul Sweet relief, my body goes Hate, dominate Everything I got on my plate Feel the weight of my pain Crushing my heart, it's sure to break I know it really wants to hurt me for sure I know it set me up, it's death premature I've tossed my fears aside, engaged in my denial I'm lost inside this space I find to be so vile Higher than the highest goes Darker than the blackest hole Feel myself release my soul Sweet relief, my body goes Hate, dominate Everything I got on my plate Feel the weight of my pain Crushing my heart, it's sure to break I know it really wants to hurt me for sure I know it set me up, it's death premature It won't go away This time it's here to stay Somehow I'll never be the same Another day, another way Another reasons for it to chip away At everything I ever loved Hate, dominate Everything I got on my plate Feel the weight of my pain Crushing my heart, it's sure to break I know it really wants to hurt me for sure I know it set me up, it's death premature Hate, dominate Everything I got on my plate Feel the weight of my pain Crushing my heart, it's sure to break I know it really wants to hurt me for sure Hurt me for sure 11. H@rd3r Choose your path and there's your truth, follow Carve an inch and here comes the sorrow Everything you do never goes away (Won't go away) Take a chance and they will erase it Fight all you can, and they are complacent Nothing you do can make it all go away (Won't go away) They are in my head now Exposed, they tear my joy out Their shadow starts to cast out Inside, I start to lash out Tell me who I am I've done all I can Tell me why my life keeps getting Harder and harder and harder Tell me what to feel This shit can't be real Tell me why my life keeps getting Harder and harder and harder Roll the dice, your number never comes up Pay the price and still your life's fucked up Once again, this evil gets everything (Gets everything) Run away, it's waiting when you get there Led astray, it's laughing 'cause it led you there Yet again, you can't make it go away (Go away) They are in my head now Exposed, they tear my joy out Their shadow starts to cast out Inside, I start to lash out Tell me who I am I've done all I can Tell me why my life keeps getting Harder and harder and harder Tell me what to feel This shit can't be real Tell me why my life keeps getting Harder and harder and harder Keep on coming for me Keep on coming for me Keep on coming for me Keep on coming for me Keep on coming for me Keep on coming for me Keep on coming for me Keep on coming for me (I can't deal) Run away, run away now (It's not real) Come for me, come for me now (I can't deal) Run away, run away now (It's not real) Come for me, come for me now Come back Let's go to sober up So you'll come back, I'm sober I can't wait to split this invisible cage Tell me, bitch, this time you can't fake it One shot and fuck yes, I take it I'll miss, 'cause you always run away They always get away They are in my head now Exposed, they tear my joy out Their shadow starts to cast out Inside, I start to lash out Tell me who I am I've done all I can Tell me why my life keeps getting Harder and harder and harder Tell me what to feel This shit can't be real Tell me why my life keeps getting Harder and harder and harder Tell me who I am (I am) I've done all I can (I can) Tell me what to feel This shit can't be real (Be real) Harder and harder and harder and harder... 12. This Loss Itty-bitty, oh-so pretty as I watch myself break down Satisfying as l'm crying, watch the vomit hit the ground I am just a shadow of the man I once used to be Everything I ever loved is always taken back from me The feeling of this loss keeps creeping Ingesting any joy that I might find It's tearing in my heart (It's killing me) It's robbing me on something I was Had to take it now I hate it, it won't ever stop I wanna take it back, I want it, I want it I wanna take it back, I want it, I want it I wanna take it back, I want it, I want it I wanna take it back, I want it, I want it There's nothing like the sound of screaming looping up all in my mind Horrid pictures of the past invading my pineal high I am just the shadow of a man I once used to be Everything I ever loved is always taken back from me (Always taken back from me) The feeling of this loss keeps creeping Ingesting any joy that I might find It's tearing in my heart (It's killing me) It's robbing me on something I was Had to take it now I hate it, it won't ever stop This is plain to see Been holding on too long to this tragedy And it's time to be free To understand what this path can lay out for me So here I am again, happiness is a club I'll never be in I'll never be in I'll never get in I'll never get in Never get in Never get in The feeling of this loss keeps creeping Ingesting any joy that I might find It's tearing in my heart (It's killing me) It's robbing me on something I was Had to take it now I hate it, it won't ever stop I wanna take it back, I want it, I want it I wanna take it back, I want it, I want it I wanna take it back, I want it, I want it I wanna take it back, I want it, I want it I wanna take it back, I want it take it back I wanna take it back, I want it take it back I wanna take it back, I want it take it back I wanna take it back Take It back, Take It back 13. Surrender To Failure Lost alone here in the dark Looking for answers I will never find, I'll never find God knew all along that he would take you And the demons were set loose to claim their prize, I am their prize Everywhere I turn, I can't escape you Did everything I could to hide For every good thing I've done, there's a price to pay And that price has left me horrified, God I tried Now I'm the one who never chose this Now I'm the one who walked a narrow line I would do anything to bring you back to me If only God would let me turn back time I've failed I've failed I've failed